Lets start over....

So, I guess I started this blog saying that I had no idea what it would turn into and for a while it was a place I could get out some of my feelings of grief, anger, frustration, and confusion during the loss of a friend. But I think I would like to change the direction somewhat to focus more on things of every day life. Stories of the little moments of joy, the fascination of nature, the inside jokes between friends, and the smell of fresh brewed coffee. The fact that the blog in its nature resides on the internet means that my journal pages will be coffee stain free and without the doodles and crossed out words of a hand-written journal, but it will still be written in the moment, probably with coffee in the hand and unseen strokes of the backspace or delete button.
The last few months have been wonderful on one hand adjusting to the joys and challenges of married life, and somewhat dry on the other as I have been distracted from ministry and even daily times in the Word. They say it is easier to follow God through the hard times when you are desperately dependent on Him, when your life or the life of a loved one depends on soley on His power and when the things of the world only seem dark and powerless. I can see now why that is so. It is sometimes hard to remember the source of the good things in my life and the fact that they wouldn't be good without a relationship with the source. When things are going right and the path is straight, a false sense of self confidence creeps up and whispers lies that are easily believed when the spiritual senses aren't so cautious and the guard is let down. When you realize you will still wake up the next day after skipping devotions and the lightning doesn't strike it is easier to skip them again... and again...
So, today I am starting new with this blog and with many other things. I am going to start remembering the Source and spending time listening to it. Having good things without knowing who made them is like seeing a piece of art and not knowing the story behind it... the good gets gooder the more the Artist is known.
Anyway, just some new thoughts about a new leaf during the fall months when most leaves are falling and old... a reminder that God is where life and death and fall and spring and beginning and end all meet.

the beginning....